DAY 63 | A new perspective (ready)

facing-addiction-a-new-perspectiveBraveheart was a ‘90s movie set in 13th century Scotland. The dialogue, music, humor, and other cultural interpretations of the depicted period naturally fit the mindset of Hollywood in the mid ‘90s.

Braveheart would have been quite a different movie if made in the ‘70s or now.

Compare the goofier, more character-driven 1978 Superman with its effects-laden, more visually compelling counterpart, Man of Steel (2013).

Different generations have different values.

Tobey McGuire’s Spider-Man didn’t quite fit the Millennial mold; so they remade the franchise yet again from scratch just five years later.

I mean, Homer Simpson was once a baby boomer, and then Gen X… Will he eventually be a Millennial?

As cultures change, we find new ways to tell ourselves old stories.

As you change, the stories you tell yourself about your experience also change. Many diverse snippets all speak to your current assessment of the whole.

Before I started sharing my experience, the stories I told myself tended to be more negative, though beneath the surface I was searching desperately for something positive to grasp and build a life around.

At the time, I saw only failure.

In November, 2014, I got high and wrote:

“You feed yourself a version of your life that best fits your current state. Then you make predictions based on that.

“Maturity might really be an eternal quest for balance.

“Each side of you, alone, is incomplete; and every state you’re in is only temporary. Even the parts that last will change in meaning—just as languages, organizations, cultures, and ideas all evolve in time.”

I wrote this the next day (high again):

“I’m amazed when I realize what I might not have learned if it hadn’t been for all my years of weed addiction.

“If I hadn’t failed my perfect plan to quit weed back in 2013, I don’t think I ever would have learned about the dangers of self-indulgence, the value of experience, facing desire

“I probably wouldn’t have learned about the power of going public at all . . . not the way I have.

“They say we never use 100% of our brains. Well, when you go public with your experience, you end up capturing and examining every relevant thought, idea, value, etc. The process paints a far richer picture than you could ever hope to see in any given moment.

“Essentially, your brain (or mind) is applied back to itself, being pushed it to its own expanding capacity.

“If not for this story, every lesson learned therein would have eventually slipped away, disappearing amongst the whispering whims of shifting memories and reinvented interpretations of whatever might never have been.”

I wrote this two days later (high):

“We humans are pretty amazing. When we put ourselves on the line, we seem to find a way to pull through.

“I have this unconscious confidence now. I believe in myself to act and make decisions from where I am. I know I’ll keep moving forward regardless of how many times I fail.

“Failure doesn’t actually matter anymore. It might as well not exist.”

I’m ready.

Tomorrow: a practical look at bringing all the pieces of your sequence together in time.

<Previous | Continue>
Intro, DAY 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 25, 26, 27, 28, 29, 30, 31, 32, 33, 34, 35, 36, 37, 38, 39, 40, 41, 42, 43, 44, 45, 46, 47, 48, 49, 50, 51, 52, 53, 54, 55, 56, 57, 58, 59, 60, 61, 62, 63, 64, 65, 66, 67, 68, 69, 70, Afterword


Comment

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s