DAY 53 | Managing yourself #10 (the good, the bad, and my lunch break)


Three years ago, my best friend gave me some great advice.

I was having trouble finding time to work on projects, so he recommended basically getting myself into a quiet room late at night and plugging away until the wee hours of the morning.

Being a natural night owl, I was amazed to find how much useful time I had whenever I could keep to my friend’s recommendation.

Sometime early last year, there came a point when it seemed more effective for me to start working on projects early in the morning instead.

I was already using the process I described yesterday, so my addiction was essentially driving itself out of one important area of my life after another.

As a result, I was left using weed only on my lunch break at work and while exercising in the garage before bed.

I happened to switch to exercising right after work so I could spend more time with my family at night.

That natural shift meant I was no longer getting high while working out.

I was left using weed only on my lunch break each day.

Yes, my addiction pushed me to find all sorts of creative ways to consume weed at other random times—whenever, wherever, however, and for whatever reason I could.

But the simple changes I’d made to my schedule enforced the progress I’d already been making, giving me a powerful edge.

Though I have far more important reasons for wanting to control addiction, my natural schedule changes made control a practical necessity.

After a about a week, I started to see why getting high only on my lunch break just wouldn’t work anymore.

I wrote this at that time (while high one day on a lunch break):

“When I only get high once a day, the immediate effects seem far stronger.

“I get so anxious each day when I get back to work, feeling like it must be obvious to everyone how high I am.

“My fear might be imaginary.

“It might just be my conscience finding yet another way to berate me for getting high too much.

“But using at lunch like this simply won’t work for me.

“So, basically without even trying, I find myself left with no convenient times to use weed compulsively anymore.”

As you prepare to share your experience, follow illuminations from others, pursue your art form, grow in perspective, and learn to manage yourself in the moment, your switch from failure to progress gives you momentum and motivation to make the very best use of your time.

Then, as your schedule naturally shifts, you find yourself left with no convenient times to indulge in addictive behaviors.

Tomorrow: some of the costliest ways addiction has kicked my ass over the last four years.

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